Soaking in the Slow-Down
I am a classic Type A(DHD), Go-Getter, Do-er, Productivity Driven, Results Junkie. I set a goal, plan out the exact steps necessary to achieve that goal and I go for it. Full steam ahead and energized. Until I am not energized and there is no more steam. When I first set out to create a skin care line I knew it would be a lot of work. As usual, I set out with extreme ambition. I’M GONNA DO ALL THE THINGS! And then I started to not like it. It felt obligatory and forced. I lost the connection to my purpose. In our new lives and in our new home, things have slowed down immensely. Where we live you better not be in a hurry for anything. Not window glass, HVAC repair, people at stop lights, grocery lines, downloading something on our painfully slow internet… A pace that allows for contemplation and exercising your patience muscles. That has definitely spilled over into how I approach work. While I want to stay visible and in touch and connect with everyone and grow my business, and and and and, I’m just not into the planned social media posts and google ads and crap like that. Do I dare glance at my SEO or who viewed my story or instagram traffic??? In fear of feeling like a failure? I am relishing the lower gear. Plain and simple. I appreciate all of you who may take the time to read this blog. Maybe you find encouragement and inspiration in our journey and maybe you fall in love with my products because they make a difference and make you feel great and you want to share that with others. That’s my purpose. That would be success, to me.
My uncle recently described me as being “spiritually motivated” and I never thought about it like that but really and truly my whole life I have been strongly driven to do things MY WAY. Not so much in a stubborn way, but in an intuitive, grand decision making way that lead me to all kinds of lessons and blessings and certainly not the easy way. This latest grand decision has felt so right and so very difficult all at the same time. But what a beautiful gift that now that we have done the hard thing (ie leaving our conventional life behind) we get to learn about slow living, doing things the long way, letting things unfold in their time, taking time to care for ourselves, provide for and nourish our bodies, minds, spirits and souls, taking the scenic route, enjoying the journey.
Next time you are speeding around or maybe feeling overwhelmed, rest in the slow present. Not thinking about the next thing you have to do or the dwelling on the past. And this might be the corniest thing I have ever said in my life, but bless it all, it’s in these moments that you find the Permanent Vacation.
Happy Vacationing,
Caisa
